By Emilee Kinney
Semitrucks shed tires often without realizing, layers left behind until blown out to the rim. It’s hot at the end of the week and with all county medians mowed, foreman assigns me and another summer hire to pick up these road gators. Spend the day in the dumptruck’s A/C that smells like salt and formaldehyde, stop every few feet on the expressway, collect shredded tires. An easy day. In the right spot, I can throw torn rubber up to block out the sun before it lands in the truckbed. Within the last four years, 200,000 crashes have been caused by U.S. roadway debris. 39,000 injuries, 500 deaths. My partner for the day wants to drive, says his younger self would never forgive him if he let a girl drive instead. I argue children are more likely to share, to be unaffected by expectations of gender, but I let him. This makes him uncomfortable. The radio discusses one of our coworkers being arrested for assaulting his girlfriend. I remember shaking his hand on my first day when the radio reveals, the girlfriend’s scalp and hair was found in the backseat of his truck. At 80 mph, road gators can seriously damage a vehicle. The guy I’m working with pulls at the dead skin peeling from my arm, asks if he can see how big of a piece he can get. It itches, so I let him. He is meticulous and his fingers hardly touch anything living. Cars zip by, each one humming louder than the last. There are less than 500 people in my hometown. Surrounded by sun-bleached fields, pasture, swollen in foal, a palomino mare watches him detach my shedding skin. He celebrates, but I prefer harder days. Anything to avoid the switch from cold cab to crunching cornflower along hot roadside. We are required to wear jeans, rawhide gloves to protect our hands, safety-vests to protect us from people—all I feel is heavy and slick. A bed of knapweed hosts a road gator larger than me. I don’t call the boy to help me lift it. I drag the tire like a tablecloth, reveal a snakenest that shifts, writhes in the sun. One head rises. Widening like a cape, its neck flares as it hisses, lashes out when its hatchlings open their silent pink mouths. I tell him to retrieve the tire. He puffs his chest, rubs his damp arms. I wonder about the younger version of him. Later, back in the truck, a full snakeskin lies across the dash.
EMILEE KINNEY hails from the small farm-town of Kenockee, Michigan, near one of the Great Lakes: Lake Huron. She received her MFA in poetry at SIU Carbondale and currently teaches at the University of Southern Mississippi while pursuing her PhD. Her work has been published in THE SHORE, Passages North, West Trestle Review, Artemis Journal, SWWIM, and elsewhere. Kinney can be found online at emileekinneypoetry.com.
This poem originally appeared in Stonecoast Review Issue 22.
Photo by Tim Gouw