By Chiara Di Lillo
I want the ending we’ve earned even as I know it won’t land
on those who deserve it most, who engineered our fate not with their hands
(never with their own hands)
but with their barks and sneers and checkbooks snapping at heels
what am I saying. there’s nothing in the deck but calamity
we think we’re going the way of NOAA, as in government agency—
we’re going the way of Noah, as in ark.
which brings me to you, named for one on the water, currently obsessed
with firefighters. are you protecting yourself from a primal fear?
or reaching like three-year-olds do so forcefully
for a role, coat to put on, ladder to climb?
I hope you’ll tell me one day. for now,
you announce fires everywhere, much to the alarm
of coffee shop patrons and library staff
who have learned there are some things you just don’t
say in crowded places even as our planet
cries wolf, wolf, wolf
and I can understand the appeal of pretend fires
that always go out when bidden
when yours will be a world of threshold, waiting to see
not whether, but how much will burn.
it can’t all be calamity. I want better than what we’ve earned.
Noah, you’ll know this soon: the first firefighters
were your neighbors. You shout, and they come running
passing buckets like generation lines
hand to hand to hand
to you: bucket and alarm in one
ready to account for everyone
ready to survive the flood.
CHIARA DI LILLO is a queer writer and educator who loves coffee, art, and bees, and unequivocally supports the movement for Palestinian liberation. Her poems have appeared in Ninth Letter, Variant Lit, and Okay Donkey, and have been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net.
This poem originally appeared in Stonecoast Review Issue 22.
Photo by Worshae