Interview
What do you write?
My focus is literary fiction. Up until recently, I wrote primarily self-contained short fiction, but I am now working on a novel-in-stories, based on the small town where I grew up in Northern Maine. I’m compelled to write character-driven narratives and stories where setting, particularly rural or wild places, plays an integral role. I would also like to branch out into creative nonfiction and memoir. There are sporadic bursts in which I dabble in poetry. However, that is the one genre I’ll likely always keep for myself, enjoying the freedom of writing terrible poems without the pressure of having them read or critiqued by others.
Is there an author or artist who has most profoundly influenced your work?
I’ve always struggled to answer this question, because I tend to flit from author to author, genre to genre. There are countless writers whose work has resonated with me, for different reasons, at various points in my life and career. I love Eowyn Ivey’s use of sensory details, as well as her touch of whimsy and magical realism, in her novels The Snow Child and To the Bright Edge of the World. I absolutely adore Louise Dickinson Rich’s memoirs of her time spent living in the Maine woods in the 1930s. And with poetry, I can never resist Whitman, T.S. Eliot, or Mary Oliver.
Why did you choose Stonecoast?
After graduating from UMaine in 2012, I found moderate success as an emerging writer. I published several stories, placed in a few writing contests, and was nominated for a Pushcart. But in late 2018, early 2019, I hit a creative wall and began to really doubt myself as a writer.
Around that same time, I started feeling pressure to find a “real” career path. I work part-time as a cataloger at a public library, and in 2019 began researching programs to obtain my Master’s in Library Science. But then on a whim, I decided to check out Stonecoast, which a friend of mine in the program couldn’t stop raving about… I loved what I read online and what I saw when I visited that friend during the summer residency in Freeport. I was struck by the vibrant energy among the students and faculty, and by how respectful and encouraging everyone was toward one another.
As with most of my major life decisions, I ultimately chose Stonecoast based off that gut feeling. I intuitively knew that this program would offer me the chance to grow as a writer and to make connections I’d never imagined possible before. I also felt the program would allow me to discover a different kind of “real” career path—one of my own making, fueled by my need for a life of creative expression.
I’m so glad I didn’t apply to library school.
What is your favorite Stonecoast memory?
I loved my first residency at the Harraseeket Inn this January. As a deeply introverted, anxious person, the experience was a huge challenge for me—but it was also an incredibly affirming and informative one. I learned so much, about my writing and about myself, and I met so many wonderful students and faculty members, all of whom put me at ease. It’s such a welcoming, accepting environment, filled with fellow awkward introverts who completely understood whenever I had to disappear and be alone for a while.
What do you hope to accomplish in the future?
Finish that novel! And hopefully many others, as well as more self-contained short stories, other linked story collections, and essays. I’d love to explore editing, reviewing books, running a local writing workshop… Someday, when I finally have that farmhouse in the country with lots of extra land, I also want to create a writers’ retreat.
I grew up in the northernmost county of Maine. I’ve always felt that area is either misrepresented or completely overlooked in literature (and in general), and I hope to bring more awareness of the region through my writing. Who knows? Maybe that’s where that far-off writers’ retreat will one day find its home…
If you could have written one book, story, or poem that already exists, which would you choose?
The Book Thief, by Markus Zusak.
Featured Work
The following is a work of fiction by Shannon L. Bowring exclusively for Stonecoast Review.
Afternoon on the Rhine
The luxury cruise liner slips its way up the wide river under dappled sun and shadow. Charming postcard villages cling to either sloping bank, white steeples rising into the air. Claudia has been looking forward to this—an entire afternoon free from tourists pushing and shoving to get pictures of crowded cathedrals and cobblestone squares. No awkward, failed attempts to speak to the local people in foreign languages, no haggling shopkeepers over the price of a cuckoo clock. Mostly, though, this afternoon is a much-needed rest from all the damned walking she and Bernie have been subjected to over the past week.
A year ago, Claudia would have loved wandering from bakery to bakery, shop to shop, Bernie at her side. But ever since the accident last October, walking for long distances has been difficult, even with the ebony cane her son, Seth, picked out for her from an antique shop back home.
“Another drink, ma’am?”
Claudia looks up from where she sits at a round white table on the sun deck of the ship. A server with thick, dark eyebrows and a severe widow’s peak smiles down at her.
“No, thank you, Darius,” she says, handing over her empty cocktail glass. “But I suspect my husband might want something when he joins me in a few minutes.”
“I vill come back, of course.” Each word drips with a heavy Eastern European accent. Last night, she overheard the young, giggling bartenders say Darius is from Romania. Claudia has never been to Romania before, or known anyone else who has, for that matter. She’s always thought it seems like a place of legend more than an actual country. Then again, she used to think that about most places other than her little hometown in rural Maine.
“Tell me, Darius. How many trips have you made up and down this river on this boat?”
“Too many times to count. Alvays one vay, then the other. Back and forth, back and forth.”
“Don’t you get sick of it?”
“Vith guests like you, ma’am?” he says, “Never.” He winks before setting off for the back of the ship, his long stride full of purpose.
Claudia guesses that Darius is about Seth’s age, maybe a little older. Certainly not a day past twenty-five. She wonders what Seth is doing at this very moment, considers sending him a quick email to tell him about the potato dumplings she and Bernie ate last night in Cologne, a dish so simple and yet so perfect that they both asked for seconds. But she thinks better of it at the last moment and tucks her phone into her bag. She settles back in her seat and watches as the river flows by. Time is like molasses today, passing so slowly it might almost cease to exist. Claudia wouldn’t mind if it did. She wouldn’t mind that at all.
At six feet, seven inches tall, with a body built like a bear, heavy with muscle, Bernie can’t help but cast a big shadow wherever he goes. That shadow has hidden and sheltered Claudia for thirty years, ever since they got married at the Dalton town office one humid June morning a week after their high school graduation. It covers her now on the sun deck of the Frigga, creating a momentary spot of coolness on the back of her neck. Bernie eases himself into the seat next to her and reaches over to squeeze her hand.
“Did you win, dear?” she asks.
“Karl cheats.”
“Does he really?”
“No, damn it. Man’s just better at chess than I am. Did I tell you he and Jackie own sixty acres in Vermont?”
Claudia has heard this at least twice since they met Karl and his wife at dinner the first night of the trip. “No, dear,” she says. “I don’t think you did.”
Bernie scratches his bearded chin. “If we had sixty acres, we could have chickens. Cows. Hell, you could even have horses like you’ve always wanted.”
“I don’t imagine riding would be comfortable anymore.”
They glance first at her cane leaning against the table, then at her right leg. Though it’s covered with her jeans now, Claudia knows they are both picturing the ugly, still-red scars running along her calf and halfway up her thigh.
“Well,” Bernie says. “Something to think about, anyway.”
They gaze out over the calm river, the villages, the terraced hills. It’s the first time abroad for either of them and Claudia knows it will be the last. The trip was a surprise anniversary present from Seth and his fiancée. It had felt wrong to let them cover such an extravagant expense, even with Avery’s fancy job at her father’s yacht club in Portland and Seth’s recent promotion at his IT company. But to refuse the trip would be an insult to them both, so Claudia had gone along with the whole silly idea. “It’ll be good for you, Ma,” Seth had said. “I think some distance will help.” Three weeks in Europe, a grand adventure, one most people would be ecstatic about. Yet she had wanted to flee back home to Northern Maine as soon as the enormous jet began to taxi down the runway in Boston.
She should feel lucky; Claudia knows this. She hears it all the time, from doctors, from friends, from people in their small town. Mellie Martin stopped her on the sidewalk outside the library just a couple weeks ago to tell her how blessed she is to have survived the accident, “even with all the rest of it.” Claudia had offered a tight-lipped smile before limping away, her cane tapping out a faltering staccato every other step.
“Have you had anything to drink yet?” asks Bernie.
She can still taste the floral sweetness of her last cocktail in the back of her throat. “No,” she says. “I was waiting for you.”
Darius returns to take their orders. A beer for Bernie; gin and tonic for Claudia.
“Vill anyone else be joining you?”
Claudia is about to say no when she sees Karl and Jackie ambling toward them arm-in-arm. At Bernie’s invitation, they take the remaining seats on the opposite side of the table. Claudia tries to smile and appear gracious, but she’s disappointed. It would have been so nice to sit here with her husband and not talk for a couple hours.
Karl orders a scotch on the rocks, and Jackie asks for a glass of red wine. Darius sets off at a brisk pace to fetch their drinks, leaving the four of them to make small talk.
“Sun’s trying to come out.”
“Forecast didn’t call for so much cloud cover.”
“But don’t the shadows make for interesting colors on the landscape? Wish I had my canvas and paints with me.”
“I’ll take a picture for you, Karl, darling. You can try to recapture it when we get back home.”
“Oh, there goes the sun again.”
Karl and Jackie are older than Claudia and Bernie by at least a decade, but they both look younger. Karl is tall and slim, with a swimmer’s body, blonde hair and blue eyes. Jackie has snowy-white hair that she wears swept back from her high forehead. Her eyes are a brilliant green, her complexion smooth and bright. Claudia, whose wrinkles began to gather at the corners of her eyes and mouth years ago, dyes her dark brown hair to mask the unruly grays that seem to multiply by the dozen every month.
Darius returns and hands out their drinks. Claudia wonders if he has a girlfriend here on the ship, or a boyfriend, or maybe both. He winks at her again. “Vould anyone like anything else?”
“No, thank you,” says Claudia. “I think we’re all set for the moment.”
“Isn’t he a darling?” asks Jackie after Darius has once more disappeared. “This is the third cruise Karl and I have taken with this company, and I must say, the staff are always so accommodating and personable.”
“Third cruise?” asks Bernie. “All here in Europe?”
“This is our first Rhine river excursion. We did the Danube last year, and the Seine before that.”
“Sights on the Mekong for the next one.” Jackie beams at Karl.
“Hear that, Claudia?” Bernie muses. “The Mekong. Can you imagine?”
Claudia takes a long time swallowing the gin in her mouth. She closes her eyes, savoring the taste—so cool, so light, so lovely. “I’ve heard Vietnam is beautiful.”
Bernie leans forward, held at rapt attention as Karl goes on about rice paddies and floating markets. Claudia feels herself drifting away from the conversation. She watches as another ship pulls into dock at a small village. Guests onboard catch sight of the Frigga, wave with wide, wild arms.
A long-buried memory comes surging up to the surface, powerful enough to make Claudia feel as though the wind’s been knocked out of her. She remembers a muggy August day at their family camp on Moosehead Lake. Seth was four years old, skinny little thing in his red swimming trunks and white t‑shirt. Denise, his six-year-old sister, wore a glittery purple bikini she’d selected from the tourist shop in Greenville. Bernie had taken the kids out for a ride in the boat that afternoon while Claudia remained on the dock with a book and a sweating glass of lemonade. He kept driving the boat past the dock at Denise’s insistence, just so the little girl could wave and grin to her mother. Claudia had waved back every time, laughing at Denise’s energy, amused by Seth’s white-knuckled caution as he crouched in the bow, clutching the orange life vest that pushed his ears up into his shaggy, brown hair.
She wishes she could excuse herself from the table to call her son, hear his voice over all the miles between them. In the first weeks after the accident, Seth had been around all the time—sitting by Claudia’s hospital bed after each surgery, cooking for her and Bernie, driving her to her physical therapy appointments. But after Christmas, Seth went back downstate, back to Avery and her big, bright oceanside condo. By February, he was only texting once every few days, saying the four-hour drive back north was just too long; maybe he’d come up the next week, or the one after that. Avery had called Claudia one day to talk about it. “He loves you more than anything,” she said. “It’s just that he was there that night too, you know? And he still hasn’t really dealt with that.”
Claudia realizes that the others have fallen silent and are looking at her expectantly.
“I’m sorry,” she says. “What were you saying, Jackie?”
“Just that we’ve been on this boat together for a week, and I feel like we hardly know each other. Tell us, do you have children?”
Claudia waits for Bernie to answer.
“Our son, Seth, is twenty-three. He’s getting married next summer.”
“How wonderful! What does he do for work?”
“Something to do with computers. Way above our heads.”
Karl laughs. “We’ve long since stopped pretending to understand what our kids do, haven’t we, Jack?”
“With six of them, sometimes it’s just enough to know they’re not living in squalor.”
“Six?” asks Claudia.
“Two together and two each from our previous marriages,” says Karl. “Family reunions are a nightmare.”
“Especially when you add in all the chaos of the little ones. Seven grandkids so far, and another on the way. Do you see any in the future for your son and his fiancée?”
Bernie finishes his drink in one quick swallow. “Well, Seth and Avery don’t plan on having any, but we actually do have a granddaughter, Ella. She’ll be five next month. We don’t get to see much of her, though. She lives with her father in New Hampshire.”
Karl and Jackie frown, trying to understand.
“She was our daughter’s,” explains Bernie. “But Denise passed away last fall.”
“Oh, my goodness, I am so sorry,” says Jackie, covering her mouth with a smooth, slim hand. “And here we are prattling on about all our kids as if…”
As if you have enough to spare, thinks Claudia.
Jackie taps her finger on the rim of her wine glass. Karl twirls the ice in his tumbler.
“Look at that,” he says. “The clouds are breaking up.”
Darius returns, and Karl and Jackie both order the same of what they had before. Bernie declines the offer for a second beer. Claudia asks for another G&T, heavy on the G this time, with extra lime if Darius can manage that. “I vill of course make that happen, ma’am,” he promises, and once again, he comes through for her. She sucks on a lime wedge as Bernie asks Karl and Jackie about their place in Vermont.
“The property taxes are high, there’s no getting around that. But we have pigs, chickens, a few goats…”
Claudia stares into her glass, traces the progress of the bubbles rising to the surface of her drink. If she bends her ear close enough, she can hear them pop and fizz. She takes a long sip, relishing the light floral taste float upon her tongue.
Denise’s drink of choice was wine. Claudia used to fret over what people might say if they knew just how much Denise loved wine. The trouble started when the girl was fifteen. Parties, booze, a string of loser boyfriends, a group of drug-skinny girlfriends who reminded Claudia of vipers, always thirsty for blood. Claudia and Bernie thought things would change after Denise found out she was pregnant when she was twenty. And for a while, it was better. She got sober and moved in with Brandon, who worked at the lumberyard with Bernie. She even began taking some online courses in medical transcription, just as Claudia had done years before. But by the time Ella was three, Denise was back at it again, drinking one or two bottles of wine a day, ignoring all the demands of motherhood, often disappearing for days at a time and returning hungover, claiming not to remember where she had been or who she had been with. Brandon didn’t tolerate this for long. He quit his job at the yard and left town, taking Ella with him back to his mother’s house in North Conway.
Looking out across the river, Claudia sees a village of white houses with red roofs and wonders what it would be like to live there. To leave everything she knows and disappear here instead. She could choose a new name, sell postcards to tourists, let her hair turn as gray as it wants. She’ll be that strange American who lives with seven cats in a studio apartment above a restaurant that always smells like schnitzel and beer.
Darius appears at her side again. He is leaning toward her, smiling, handing her another drink, and Claudia is so pleased by this that she grabs his wrist and holds on, blinking up at him. His face swirls above her. He gently pulls free from her grasp and walks away without looking back, shoulders pushed up to his ears.
Only then does she notice that Bernie, Karl, and Jackie are staring at her, frowns creasing their foreheads.
“How about that man?” she asks. “Do you think Dracula was ever so handsome as him?”
No one answers. Claudia drinks.
Ahead of them now is the famous Lorelei, a massive rock crouching over the Rhine, blocking the view of what lies beyond the bend of the river. Claudia has heard the tour guides tell about the Lorelei, the siren who sits high upon the cliff and combs her long, golden hair, luring sailors to their untimely deaths upon the rocks below. Claudia knows it’s just a story, a silly little folktale. But still, she swears there’s something about the cliff that really does feel haunted, as though she can sense the reverberations of all the past men, real or imagined, who crashed upon those rocks and slipped breathless beneath these waters.
She feels something similar each time she passes the stretch of road back home where a spindly white cross slumps on the shoulder of the pavement. In the weeks after the accident, that cross had been wrapped in a pink bow, teddy bears and photographs and garish carnations littered at its base. Now, eight months since Denise died, it’s just the cross that remains, weathered by wind and rain and a winter that didn’t want to end. Claudia never did figure out who put it there—one of Denise’s old friends, maybe, or a long-forgotten teacher who once thought the girl showed some potential. Not that it matters. They had never been a religious family, and in the end, that cross was nothing more than two pieces of plywood marking the spot where Denise had drawn her last breath.
“Are you two going on the dinner tour in Rüdesheim tonight?”
“We’ll probably stay on the ship. Claudia’s leg has been bothering her.”
“Not to be indelicate,” Jackie says, “but might I ask what happened? You just seem so young to be using a cane, dear.”
“We were in a car accident,” Bernie answers after a drawn-out silence. “The whole family. I just had a few bumps and bruises, but our son fractured some ribs and sprained both wrists. Claudia broke her leg in two places.”
“I broke mine once,” says Karl. “Took months to recover. How long ago did it happen?”
Bernie looks away, toward the gray-green shore. “Last fall.”
“Was that how you lost your daughter?” Jackie’s voice is soft.
Claudia doesn’t understand what makes people think it’s acceptable to ask this question, poke their greedy fingers into grief that isn’t theirs. Damn voyeurs. She finishes the remainder of her drink in one sloppy gulp and gazes toward the cliff looming over the river. It’s closer now, maybe a hundred yards away, and looks as though it’s rushing at them instead of them moving toward it. Claudia had had the same sensation that cold October night when Denise swerved suddenly into the opposite lane of Route 11, right into the path of an oncoming eighteen-wheeler. For the briefest of moments, time had stopped, and all that existed was that truck bearing down on them, closer and closer and closer.
It happened so fast. One moment Claudia had been lecturing Denise about seeking visitation rights with Ella, now that Denise was in AA and working at the grocery store; the next moment Denise was sobbing and speeding toward the log truck, knuckles white against the wheel, and Bernie and Seth were shouting from the backseat, and Claudia did the only thing she could think to save her daughter, to save them all. She threw herself over the center console and yanked the steering wheel from Denise’s hands, overcorrecting the vehicle back into their own lane and onto the shoulder, up and over and down and over again.
Later that night, as Claudia lay in a hospital bed woozy from drugs and pain and shock, the police told her that Denise’s blood-alcohol level had been twice the legal limit. “Impossible,” she had insisted. “She’s working the program. She has a job. She’s doing better.” Bernie and Seth would help Claudia piece it together later—Denise’s lies about attending meetings, the truth that she had been fired for stealing booze, that Brandon had called that morning to tell Denise he was petitioning for full custody of Ella.
But none of the facts mattered to Claudia. All that mattered was that she’d killed her only daughter. She’d killed her trying to save her.
Jackie is reaching out, saying something. Claudia ignores her and stares up at the Lorelei rock, practically on top of them now, its shadow blocking the sun, and swears she sees a flash of gold at the top of the cliff. As the ship rounds the bend, she cranes her neck for a better look. And there it is, not a myth but something solid, something real, a woman in white at the top of the rock, combing her long hair and smiling down upon the river.
As suddenly as the woman appears, she vanishes. Claudia blinks, trying to find her again, but there is nothing there other than trees and mossy green rock. Jackie is still talking, her voice low and murmuring like water rushing over pebbles.
“People must tell you how lucky you are to have survived.”
“All the time,” says Claudia.
Jackie shakes her head, gazes out toward where the river kisses the summer sky. “Clueless idiots.”
Darius reappears, this time standing on the opposite side of the table. If Claudia were sober, she’d be offended. Bernie asks for an iced tea, and Karl agrees to another scotch. Jackie asks for two gin and tonics.
“And Darius,” she says, nodding toward Claudia, “put hers on our tab.”
The Frigga continues its way up the river, all the clouds gone, the sun out to stay. Later, Claudia will succumb and email Seth, tell him about those potato dumplings, and about the castles on the hills, and the postcard villages where she will never live. Wish you were here, she will say. Sounds great, Ma, Seth will write back, tomorrow or the next day, or maybe a few days after that. Weather been all right? Neither of them will mention his sister. But she will be there, unseen inside the spaces between the words, and Claudia will know with absolute certainty that Denise… Denise would have written so much more.
Shannon L. Bowring’s fiction has appeared in Silver Needle Press, Crack the Spine, The Seventh Wave, JMWW, The Maine Review, Sixfold, the Hawaii Pacific Review, and the Joy of the Pen online journal. Shannon’s work has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize and a Best of the Net Award. She holds a B.A. in English/Creative Writing from the University of Maine and is currently pursuing her MFA in Creative Writing at USM Stonecoast. Shannon grew up in Aroostook County, Maine, and now resides in the Midcoast region of the state. Shannon is also a Contributing Editor for Aspiring Author, a site offering business advice to writers in all stages of their careers.
Shannon, your story held me all the way through, well done! I also loved your poetry reading. Thanks for sunshine on a dreary day!
Sally Gray